Graduated, Moving to California, DormCo, and more..

Helloo everyone,

Long time no post ! :)

A lot of exciting things have been going on in my life.

I officially graduated from my 2 year college with an Associates degree in Business Administration. I am so excited to put this degree to work. I am sure that I can find a job that will be in line with my future goals.

I am so HAPPY to have finally graduated after 4 years of being out of highschool.

So even though I graduated my education is not done (I wish); I chose to continue this journey to being a future counselor in California.

I have decided to move from New York to California, which is a HUGE move for me. My first time living alone and I chose to move 6 hours away, (sorry mom).

My mother is not taking this news very well because It'll  be far from everyone I know, my entire family, and friends. But I feel like I have to make this move, for myself.

Other than that I am ready. I move in August and I cannot wait. I am so excited. And if I am going to make a life changing move, the time to do it is now!

i will be going to Sacramento State University so I am officially a new hornet ( The Hornet is the school's mascot).

I will be majoring in psychology and nutrition, and dorming for the very first time.

Whoo! can't wait to experience that. This can go extremely well or terribly wrong, but I'll pray for the best. I am easy to get along with :)

If anyone else is forming or moving to a new dorm and needs to buy dorming supplies, I would suggest you check out

      (just click the banner for Dormco) or Dormitup.com.

That's all for now ladies and gents!

I will be posting more, and making videos of my journey and my move so please stay tuned. And be sure to check out those two websites to SAVE money! Everyone knows dorming is EXPENSIVE.

And wish me luck :) If you want to know more, or have any questions, leave me a comment, or stay tuned.

Thank you for reading !

- Larie

After College Graduation 2015!

z Larimar Cabrera      

I know why…

Why am I here?

Why do i matter?

Who says anything matters..

Im going through a time where I honestly feel like I don't want to be here. I say that to myself often. I would never commit suicide or anything. I'm not unhappy, I just don't understand sometimes. 

I try to push it away by saying, "God has a reason for everything, he has a plan, he is taking care of us." All which I believe with all my heart, I just do not know his plan yet and sometimes I forget those reasons. 

If it were up to me I would choose to not be on this earth, like never created. 

Truthfully I am afraid of the future.

I hate the way this world is, the way some people are, cold hearted and really only care about themselves and what they want. And I only imagine things getting worst. What I see matters to this world is basically status and money. In order to live an okay life you need money, but you'll have to deal with the stress that comes with it, like spending all our waking hours working.

One way or another you have to work.

School is work, networking is work, building a resume is work, keeping a routine is work. Work causes stress when you add pressure. And most people have the pressure of NEEDING to work to live a comfortable life, not choosing to work.

I believe this is what stresses me out. I'm only 21, I'm not set to choose if I want to work or not. The government says I have to work,  I have to pay bills, and if I want to have a place to live, eat, or wear something decent, I have to work, Otherwise we have the option to be homeless- tough choice. 

Was I really born to wake up everyday to go to school, to work, and to sleep and do it again over and over and in between to fill time, find some meaningless entertainment, like a movie that I would't even remember in a month.. I highly doubt it.

Everyone wants to be safe, happy, loved, peaceful, joyful, energetic and basically alive with no worries. 

As I put things into perspective, I notice that I am really pressured. Pressured to keep up with time, to behave a certain way, to conform to societies ways, to have an education if I ever want to make it anywhere (even to help people you need a piece of paper with stamps and a signature), I have to work because I need to pay for that education, -- Stress. I cant get a great job until I get an education, and I cant get a good education until I get a great job. 

I can't buy a house until I get a great job and great credit, and Its hard to get a great job if I dont have a great education. And great credit comes when you are willing to spend and then pay them back with interest. 

This system sucks, it works like a trap, the government is cruel, and the police force isn't all serving and protecting the way they are suppossed to. 

I hear stories about people getting killed all the time, stories of people trusting the police and becoming a victim instead.

I believe we have a false sense of freedom. When you try to be dfferent and speak up, you can get killed, shut down, shoved into a prison, who knows…  disorder is disliked.

I say why was I born, and why am I still here..

I can really only answer that in one way.

Jesus.

He is the way, the truth and the life.

you ever heard "The truth will set you free"? Well Jesus is the truth.

The only thing that can truly set me free is Jesus. 

So he gives me hope and stregnth, and love, and joy, and peace all over again even when this world is terrible, the bright light in him restores hope to people everyday. 

I know why I am here; I matter because God created me the way I am, with a purpose and a plan.

• Jeremiah 1:5, NIV Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.
• Revelation 4:11, NKJV You are worthy, O Lord, To receive glory and honor and power; For You created all things, And by Your will they exist and were created.
• Matthew 37-39, ESV And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
• Matthew 5:16, NIV Let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
• Ecclesiastes 12:13, ESV The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.
  
  Micah 6:8, ESV He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
• Psalm 86:12, ESV I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart, and I will glorify your name forever.
• Jeremiah 29:11, NIV For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.tells me so.. 

Hello World

Today was a good day.   :))

Can't wait till Christmas. I'll be off to Massachusetts with my fams. ♡❤

Lots of food at work

My sister passed and is getting ready for the GED Test, I'm so proud. 👏

I passed my Business Law Class Finally!! after so MUCH struggle this semester, with 4 dropped classes ://😓😅

#Gladtobedone

1 semester left for graduation ×🌹🌹🎉🎉🎉🎉🎈

I just turned 21, so i'm still hypee.
cant wait to go out this weekend, even with the terrible weather
☔☔❄❄❄☔☔☁☁⛄✔

That's how New Yorkers do it.

Happy Birthday to ME :))

21 years ago my mother had me. It's amazing how they had no idea I was coming a year before that. I wasn't even thought of. 21 never seemed like a big deal to me. But today it is.

I feel loved and set apart. Like this is my day and everything is going to be alright, because God has me.
I am actually happy and excited.

and Trying to let go of all the worries, and fears.

I was not one of those children that wanted to be an adult already, I wasn't drinking and going out a lot before I was legal, and thankfully, I have learned how to find my fun elsewhere. So I never thought "21 will be the year I can finally.... "

I wanted to stay young, ( I know I'm still young) but now I am at that age where things can either start getting really tough and complicated, or totally amazing and worth every step. Hopefully it is both.

IDK where I am heading yet, what my purpose is in life, who I am meant to be, who I will marry, nor what I want to do with myself, but I do know that my life is precious.

As I walked to work this morning I was thinking of the understanding that I do have.

I understand the love of God. That is the best thing I could ever ask for. I know that I wasn't pure coincidence, nor a product of chance. I am a product of desire, chosen and created by a God that loved me and knew me before anyone even thought of me. I have value and purpose, I am a princess because I am the daughter of a king, the most high king.
And I have always been treated like a princess by God. Like a delicate rose.

It is amazing and I am so thankful for his love and the joy that he has kept in my life.

This all may seem basic, but 21 years ago I had little to no knowledge of anything. A touch, a smile, or a look made my days joyful as a child.

And now 21 years later I know the most important thing that I could ever know. The thing that I wish everyone Knew and believed; that we are all loved, cherished, and called by God, the greatest father, the greatest example and the greatest love story ever told.

I wouldn't give that up for the world.

Happy Birthday to ME  and I know everything is going to be better than okay.

His Daughter ~ Molly Kate Kestner (Original)

Beautiful!
And made me cry.

Prayer

Dear God, God forgive me of my sins. I believe in my heart that Jesus died and rose again for my sins. I surrender to you God, I want to know you more. Lord have your way in me. ... In Jesus name, Amen!

Confess with you mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus died on the cross and rose again for our sins so that we may have eternal life.

From the heart

God I need you to be with me through all of this. I am afraid. I am feeling a lot of pain and confusion God. But I know you have everything under control, and I know that you love me. I know that whatever I am going through you can use for your glory.

Let your will be done.
Have my heart God, you will be my refuge, my helper, my peace, my love, my protector, my father, my God.

I do not need anyone else but you God.
Lord I need you.

People come and go, times change, we grow and things are frightening. I am so scared of being alone, I am scared of things around me changing beyond recognition, to the point where I have no one close to me. But in those moments  Jesus remind me that I am never alone. I know that you are with me.

I do not need anyone else but you God.
Lord I need you.

Suicide - Just don't do it

Hey guys,

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5 Things About Me

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Have a beautiful day.

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Tuition

Great day.

I loved my 1st college, It was a Christian Private school, and they were a great community of people. I made friends there, and learned a lot of things. It was definitely a blessing at a time where I was totally clueless, and thought no college would ever accept me.

I've always had an issue with failure, I don't like to fail. Applying to private colleges there was always a chance of no one choosing me, and it felt like setting myself up for failure.
(Even though I have been an honor student since elementary)

That always played a role when it came to applying to schools. The other part of the problem when applying was procrastination. I never applied to middle school, they chose me, high school, they chose me, and college, well they chose me also. I had to fill out an application, but I was pretty much guaranteed the position. It was an awesome feeling because I had heard great things about this college, and I wanted to be in there.

It was beautiful, the classes were awesome and I did learn alot, they also had church services and prayer so it helped me in my faith.

But I had an issue that quickly became a problem, Tuition. It should have been explained a little better to me, and I should have prayed about it more before making a decision to get into the school. Unfortunately, I had to transfer because it was too expensive for me. I totally loved the classes and the people, and the praying, christian community that the school had, but why did it have to be soo expensive?.

So now here I am 2 years later paying tuition. My loans interest charges going up by the month, and a loan under my mothers name, which might mess with her credit if I don't pay it soon. BAD

While in the school, I commuted, paying metro card fees, paying for expensive books, and I had to have extra classes that were required for the private school, which were not part of my major. Those credits did not transfer when I transferred. Out of my 31 credits only 15 were accepted. The school had mostly adults, and I wanted to be in a school with a lot of clubs, and extracurricular activities, and they were lacking that. Now I am in a community college and in that college I got accepted into a program that gives me monthly metro cards, pays for my books, and pays for whatever financial aid does not pay. It is so much of a blessing. I am in a dance club, and a bible study club.

So was it worth going to the other school? I am not sure. A great experience? Yes it was. Would I do it again? uhhh probably, but then want to transfer again.

I hate owing money, so now that I am in another college, and practically in it for free, I am trying to pay everything off. I do not want to have to deal with this after I graduate. I didn't know that so much was accumulating, and how real it is to have a loan that is due for payments.

So, yea today I am proud of myself.

I tackled part of my tuition! (insert balloons here) 1 down 2 more to go.

I paid my school the full amount, and now I can get my Official Transcript :) I still have loans for the state that need to be paid, but are currently on forbearance.

Ladies and gentleman, please be very well informed before entering a school. Have a plan, and do not just go for the shiny parts of the school because you can get those first few core classes anywhere. Like an alternate, cheaper, community school where you can finish the core classes, and then transfer to whatever school you want to complete your major. If you'd rather go to the private school first, then do some research on scholarships, and programs that you might qualify for.

It is a major Save.


Love LariX3