21 years ago my mother had me. It's amazing how they had no idea I
was coming a year before that. I wasn't even thought of. 21 never seemed
like a big deal to me. But today it is.
I feel loved and set apart. Like this is my day and everything is going to be alright, because God has me. I am actually happy and excited.
and Trying to let go of all the worries, and fears.
I was not one of those children that wanted to be an adult already, I wasn't drinking and going out a lot before I was legal, and thankfully, I have learned how to find my fun elsewhere. So I never thought "21 will be the year I can finally.... "
I wanted to stay young, ( I know I'm still young) but now I am at that age where things can either start getting really tough and complicated, or totally amazing and worth every step. Hopefully it is both.
IDK where I am heading yet, what my purpose is in life, who I am meant to be, who I will marry, nor what I want to do with myself, but I do know that my life is precious.
As I walked to work this morning I was thinking of the understanding that I do have.
I understand the love of God. That is the best thing I could ever ask for. I know that I wasn't pure coincidence, nor a product of chance. I am a product of desire, chosen and created by a God that loved me and knew me before anyone even thought of me. I have value and purpose, I am a princess because I am the daughter of a king, the most high king.
And I have always been treated like a princess by God. Like a delicate rose.
It is amazing and I am so thankful for his love and the joy that he has kept in my life.
This all may seem basic, but 21 years ago I had little to no knowledge of anything. A touch, a smile, or a look made my days joyful as a child.
And now 21 years later I know the most important thing that I could ever know. The thing that I wish everyone Knew and believed; that we are all loved, cherished, and called by God, the greatest father, the greatest example and the greatest love story ever told.
I wouldn't give that up for the world.
Happy Birthday to ME and I know everything is going to be better than okay.
